Eye Tell All: My Plastic Surgery Confession
By Kristen Flowers
When I sat down at my laptop I gave serious thought about whether I wanted to write this article. Even now I am worried what picture it will paint of me. Will people think I am vapid or shallow? Will I be looked at like one of the Real Housewives or a Kardashian? Or, will people be interested in my experience? I will take my chances on the second one.
It’s time to admit my big secret.
I had plastic surgery.
You can call it what you like; had a little work done, under went a procedure, went under the knife but it doesn’t matter how you say it, the simple fact is I altered my appearance through unnatural means.
So let me back up and give you the full picture. I am a 33-year old woman who gets up at 2:45 a.m for work everyday. It seems natural that I would have bags or dark circles under my eyes – but no matter how early I went to bed the night before or what creams and makeup I tried, I simply couldn’t get rid of them.
For years I was asked on (almost) a daily basis, “are you feeling okay?”, “you look sick”, “wow, you must be tired”. It was frustrating because even at my most energetic or rested I was still getting labeled as exhausted, stressed, and ill.
I started taking better care of myself and lost thirty pounds hoping that would change how I looked in the mirror and although it did boast my confidence, I still saw those tired eyes looking back at me. In fact, they actually looked worse. My self-confidence plummeted so much that I avoided pictures and videos, always offering to be the one shooting the camera. Nothing I tried seemed to make any difference and that’s when I headed to Google.
I discovered Restylane and found that it was a filler used on the face to plump up areas. I examined before and after pictures like a detective investigating a murder scene. Was there different lighting? Did it looked photoshopped? Was a filter used for the “after” picture? Some I found were insanely altered and others looked like the real deal.
After doing some research I decided to have a consultation with Dr. Anwar at Point Health in Roseville. I simply asked him for what he thought I should have done and didn’t point out my concerns. He examined my face and after a thorough investigation he told me that he wouldn’t touch anything except for under my eyes. I felt my concerns confirmed. He told me that he could use Restylane to fill in the area to help the sagging, hallow skin under my eyes and before I could stop myself I was booking the appointment.
The day of the appointment I was so anxious. I was worried that something would go wrong and I would permanently look like a wax sculpture. Another fear I had was I wouldn’t notice any difference at all, except in the weight of my wallet.
Dr. Anwar was very kind and gentle as he made two tiny holes near the apples of my cheeks. There was no numbing done but the incision holes felt just like getting a shot, on your face, which isn’t pleasant but not painful. After that, he inserted the Restylane into the pockets under my eyes and then I was good to go. The entire experience lasted about twenty minutes and the results are suppose to last for six-nine months
I walked out of the doctor’s office puffy but satisfied with the difference.
The next few days I wanted to hide under a rock as the puffiness lingered and the skin under my eyes bruised. To me, it felt like the end of the world as my anxiety kicked in. What had I done? This looks terrible! I am definitely going to look this way for the rest of my life!
But of course the swelling went down and the bruising went away and I could see the full effects. Looking at the before and after pictures I can see a slight difference and it looks very natural. Restylane does not help with the pigment of the skin so I have adopted the practice of using a skin brightener but since I just started with that the effects have been minimal so far.
Would I do it again? I am not sure actually. I do notice a difference but I am still not convinced it was a big enough change to be worth the money. Altering your appearance is not for everyone but if you are thinking about it, do your research and make sure it’s right for you.